I'm listening to Appleseeds by Vio/Mire (also known as Brendan Glasson...also known as my brother).
It reminds me of his graduation from Hampshire last year I think it was? That day was so rainy & chilly. It was perfect for a return to the Northeast; just what I needed.
It also makes me think of fire pits & organic farms & burning wooden furniture from a house that didn't belong to us & doggies & alcohol & bicycles & yellow rain jackets & mods & campfire songs with ALL of my siblings in one place.

I miss them all. I really really do. I got to the Hampshire campus & immediately fell in love. I wanted to go there with all of my heart; now? I'm not so sure now.
I'm thinking of SCAD at this point. The future is fucking frightening.
Photography is definitely what I want to do with my life after a few years of touring around with my best friends.
Current dream job? National Geographic. HAH. Right. (hence the "dream" portion)
If nothing with photography I'm thinking librarian.
I'd love to be a caretaker of books. Maybe at a big library somewhere up north or in the midwest?

College? Career? Why are those C words so scary?
I can't even plan next weekend,
how am I supposed to plan my life.

I refuse.
...
Contradictions. Aren't we all full of them?
I seem to sort of already mapped out my life...
Oh boy. I'm a mess.
I think I'm okay with that.